Worrying about "Life, the Universe, and Everything"...

Yes, this title is a somewhat obvious reference to the books by Douglas Adams. I felt it reflect the breadth and scope of my worry at times. I'm chuckling to myself as I consider all the thoughts racing through my head. I could strait up say that I'm dealing with an anxiety, and that's pretty much the truth. Honestly, though I careful labeling myself with word disorder, because I think I often hide behind it as an excuse for my difficulties in life. I've often told people my problem is that I'm afraid of everything, yet I'm finding even this may not be the most accurate statement. The best description of insanity is probably that I'm a "worrywart," which Merriam Webster dictionary defines as an inclination to "worry unduly."  In a most likely more extreme sense than most this is definitely. I worry about literally aspect of my life. I'm pretty sure at times I even worry about worrying. This most likely is a full blown disorder, as this has greatly impacted nearly every aspect of my life. In fact, I find it interesting that worry is defined as "to feel or experience concern or anxiety." So, I see now that worry and anxiety are practically synonymous. As I write actually my own condition begins to make sense, though I don't know if I can describe how. What I can say that I want those who read this to realize something important. After finally identifying this problem in my life, I now understand how to deal with it. I also understand that I can stop constantly blaming myself for things that may have truly been out of control. I've also come to realize that I am not as alone as I think I am. This is one of the most important lessons I've learned, because it ties in with the next important lesson I've learned. People can't help you if don't let them. Sometimes, it will be more than we can bare only. These are times, when depressed or anxious it's easy to believe no one cares. This is a lie! You are loved by more than you know. Even if people on this Earth are cruel I know that a good and loving God stands by us as well. Regardless, of who you are he is ready to help if we'll only ask. I may address this topic in more detail later. For now, I want those who may experience similar or worse difficulties with depression or anxiety to know you're not alone. You are loved more than you possibly comprehend. There are more people than you realize willing to help you, if you have the courage to ask. More than that I know there's a loving Father in Heaven who's always there. Both have helped me through my difficulties and I see now that there is hope. Just hang in there a little longer, and have the courage to ask when you can't bare it alone any longer. Well, for now I wish you all the best.

Until next time...
The voice from Limbo.